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I know you're trouble. I know that no good can come of talking to you. You broke my heart and didn't seem to care. All this time goes by and you say hello b/c it's christmas? that's a fucking excuse if I've ever heard one. I used to enjoy your company until I came to the realizaton that I was being used. I'd blame you for ruining what I had but I realize that I took part in it too. I'm actually kind of glad things turned out the way they did. If they hadn't, I wouldn't be where I am now. I hurt someone that really in the end, didn't deserve it. I've said sorry a million times and to me, thats never going to be enough. I see things so much clearer now. How could I have been so naive and stupid? Once you heard that you weren't getting sex anymore, you said those 3 words and then you took them back. How does someone do that? I risked my relationship for the possibility of something that you just couldn't give me. I don't think you are capable of love.
I am happy with who I am and where I am at this stage of my life right now and a few people have tried to pull me back in to the life I used to live... It's not going to work this time. I am stronger and it's not worth it. I have a single person that knows everything about me and that I trust with my life. I am not risking something this trust that I have built up. He's everything I could ever want and I am head over heels in love. I am so thankful for everything that he does for me and for him making me a better person. He sees me for who I am and still loves me anyways. It's been almost a year now and I hope there are many more to come.
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[14 May 2008|08:44am] |
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I haven't updated this thing in so long I figured, hey I have some time... so why not. Things are going pretty good other than not having a car and not having a job now because of a shitty self centered friend. She was my ride and I understand that she's going through a lot of shit right now and can't work anymore and she needs to do whats best for her, but instead of asking if I'm ok with her decision and if I have another way to get to work, she called me asking if I could explain her situation to the place where we worked so they didn't think she just quit on them. She has no concern for anyone except for herself. Either way, I had a pretty great weekend with Greg. We went to quiznos then on monday we went to see speed racer at the IMAX. I thought it was awesome. I don't know what the critics are thinking half of the time. Greg then downloaded the new dcfc album for me. It might just be better than transatlantacism. It's fucking amazing. Now I am sitting at home watching little g. Greg's taking me to get a haircut tomorrow for free. A place in milford is giving free haircuts at their training center but all the hair stylists have licenses so that make me feel better. I am so excited. I haven't had a haircut since december. I was supposed to go last week with my selfish friend but she supposedly forgot to set her alarm and her phone died. I was looking forward to it all week last week. I even woke up early, got dressed and then waited for her for an hour before I went back to bed.
Things with Greg and I are going great. We hardly ever fight and when we do, we're usually drunk haha. We've been together for almost 5 months. We spend all of our free time together. The most we've been apart is like 4 days. We always spend weekends together and have only spent one weekend apart since we've been together. As soon as I get my car fixed, it's in the process of being fixed although there was a minor set back, I am going to get a job again so I can save for our apartment. We hope to have one by the end of the year. I might move in with him pretty soon, hopefully I do b/c I hate being away from him. We finish each others sentences all the time and I never get sick of him. I thought I was in love with Brian, but It's not love when you treat the person you "love" like crap. I treated him like crap, not the other way around. He deserved someone way better than me. I'm not going to mess things up this time and so far, so good :)
I am so happy and I hope this feeling never fades away.
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Wow, it's been so long since I posted a journal entry. I just feel like I need to get some things out that have been building up. My dad passed away last friday from what can I guess be classified as "death by misadventure" because he died of a an overdose of pills that he took on purpose. SO was it a suicide or overdose or both? I wasn't close to him at all and actually hardly knew him and It's just hard knowing that he's not at least around for me to track down and get to know. He was a drug addict all his life and didn't know how to be a dad. He's been in and out of my life. The only good thing that came out of his passing was that I got to see family on his side of the family that I haven't even met/seen for 12 plus years. So now I am at least keeping in contact with my new found family ( i guess that's what you'd call it) and I can get to know him through them somewhat. No matter how much of a druggie he was, all everyone at the funeral kept telling me was that he had a good heart and was a nice person. I mean, I did know him somewhat and spent a summer with him once so I know that it's true. I was also really glad that I went to the funeral as much as I was dreading it b/c brian got to meet my dad for the first time and what will unfortunately be the last time. He also got to meet my new found family too. Idk.. I guess a lot of good did come out of this situation but I still feel really depressed about the whole situation. Well, I am off to bed to get up at 6 30 am for work.. oh joy.
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[31 Mar 2006|12:32am] |
The worst feeling in the world is knowing that you lost someone and also knowing that there is nothing you can ever do to get them back.
I am not talking about someone who has passed away but rather someone who is still living. That's the worst part... they are still here and I can't be with them. I can't see their face everday and just think of how beautiful they are when they don't think they are or when they're not even trying. They,she, was my best friend in the greatest sense of the word. It tears me apart inside everday to think of how good things were until I made a rash decision based on something that happened in the past that didn't even involve this person. I wish this person knew how much I cared for them and missed them. I know writing this doesn't solve anything, i'm just hoping that maybe that person will read this and although I have tried to mend things before, maybe this will be the glue that puts all the pieces back together again. Maybe I just need to let go of the past. I don't want to but at least I can hold on to every memory of that person that I have because memories are forever. I wish I could go back and do it all over again. I should never have shut this person out of my life. I don't know what I was thinking. I hate having regrets but throughout my whole life thus far, this has been my only regret.
I will always love you even if you don't love me anymore
I never meant to hurt you, I swear
You were the last person I would hurt on purpose
I'm Sorry
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| It's 4:33 am and I can't sleep |
[06 Dec 2005|04:33am] |
This is retarded. It's 4 in the freaking morning and I can't sleep. I slept 13 hours last night and drank caffeine before I went to bed b/c all we had to drink was coke, so I am tired but my body is restless. I laid in bed for about 2 hours trying to sleep and It just wasn't happening. So when I do fall asleep, which will probly be around anywhere from 6-10am, i need to sleep 10 hours. I don't even try to sleep 10 hours. I just go to sleep and always wake up 10-12 hours later. That's how it's always been. When I had school, I used to sleep 8 hours a night and then come home after school and always take a 2 hour nap. I don't know why I sleep this long. I know it's abnormal to other people but to me it's just an everday thing. I should really stop drinking this coke tho but I am so thirsty and yeah I know that soda doesn't quench thirst.
I went to a party with my friend Heather and her GF, Liz, the other night. I am racist so please excuse these racist comments that are about to be made. There were so many ethnic people at this party. There were albanians, puerto ricans, spics, and n***** (i think that's too harsh of a word when typed so i censored myself). There was this one spic who looks like the cliche image of a mexican illegal alien. He had a long mustache, long dirty hair, he was in his mid 40's maybe and i could totally picture him crossing the border in a typical truck that spics drive, right over the u.s. border. Well, anyways, he kept looking me up and down and I was like, eww gross and was thinking, yuck, don't look at me like that. The party totally blew and was a waste of time.
Afterwards I went with Heather and Liz back to Heather's house and we stayed up until 7 am! The next day we woke up around 12, went out to some stores, dyed liz and heather's hair, and got pretty and took pictures. I had the best time there. I haven't had such a good time in a while. I forgot what it was like to get out.Here are some pics for your viewing pleasure
Heather and Liz &hearts
  
Heather and I &hearts
Oh but the entry doesn't end yet! I am chock full of more stuff to write. Tonight I hung out with Nikki and Adam. Oh how I missed them both &hearts. It was a good time. Last weekend I hung out with Ceci for the first time in a long while b/c i was mad at her for quite some time. I met her new boyfriend type thing and he is really artsy, smart and cute. I think he looks like Adam Brody, aka Seth from the o.c. Does anyone else see the resemblence? Only difference is their hair
Adam
Ryan
here are some more pics from that night!
Ceci and Holli &hearts
Mike Paul &hearts
Felic &hearts
One more thing, next month I may be going to louisiana or tennessee depending on where my friend will be for work. I will be there for a few days and he's gonna pay for my ticket there and back, he has lots of money lol so he doesn't mind. I really hope it works out. I would love to visit a different state that's totally foreign to me. Oh yesss and how's brian you ask?
We're doing great!
&hearts &hearts &hearts &hearts &hearts
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[28 Nov 2005|01:11am] |
What do you say to someone to cheer them up when you agree with them 100% about what's upsetting them? One of my friends is very lost. He feels the same way that I do about life. I am not a very big fan of life. I'm not suicidal but I don't want to be here or have to deal with life at all and if I were to die today, I would be absoloutely fine with that and it'd pretty much be a reilef. We both have the same perspective on life which is this: We don't want to grow up. We want to be kids forever. Growing up means having to pay out ur ass just to live and what fun is that? How do you get to live your life if you are always struggling to live? I mean, you work your ass off only to give your hard earned money to the government and to bills. Thinking about how many bills I am going to have to pay makes me want to shit my pants.
-House bills, i.e. mortgage/rent
-utilities, i.e. water bills, heating bills, electric bills
-food, gas, clothes, car bills
ughhhh.....Brian says I shouldn't be so pessimistic but How am I supposed to be truly happy with the world that we live in today? I only see this world getting worse before/even if it gets any better. I really just hate this world. I know it's rather sad and all but it's the truth. Sometimes the odds outweigh the hopes. I always tell brian that the odds of such and such happening are minascule and he's all like well why do you think like that? Why can't you just think that there's a chance of it happening rather than something being unlikely to happen? I just don't know.
me: heyyyy what are u doing up so late silly boy?
him: ugh.. cant sleep
me: something troubling you ?
him: nah
me: ok, just checking
him: well.
me: ?
him: i cant seem to accept that im growing up. i miss the days of living in northbridge. being a teenager. i guess thats whats keeping me awake
me: ohhh... yeah growing up does suck, not to make you feel worse or anything but i know what you mean
him: it sucks so bad i just dont think i can do it
me: yeah more responsibility as more time goes on... you can i know you can i believe in you
him: but i dont believe in me
me: why not?
him: no confidence
me: why?
him: i dont know ive never had confidence in myself because all my life ive fucked up
me: but you are finally doing good in life
him: not really im delaying the inevitable
me: like you're going to college and that's something to be proud of
him: im basically just stalling
me: yeah, same here with the whole license and job thing, i wish i didn't have to work at all
him: me either
me: i was sposed to be looking for a job last week and i didn't
him: i thought you had one?
me: i put my 2 weeks notice in but then got fired early
him: ouch
me: so now i need a new one or else i will be kicked out on the streets b/c i have no where else to go so i have no choice, i can't delay anymore you still have some time to be young live it up before u have to pay out ur ass for bills and shit act as immature as possible without getting into too much trouble don't let this time just pass by.. lol i sound really corny
him: no you dont im trying to get insight on the subject its not corny
me: oh ok good then well i say you have another year or 2 until u really have to grow up so yeah
him: i know
me: i wish i could just literally not have to deal with life, i'm not suicidal, i just don't want to be here
him: me too dude
me: i wish there was some way to just shut the world down for a while and just make life stop so you can live in one moment for as long as you want or that the world would just stop when there something that you don't want to deal with
him: yup
me: i cringe at the fact that i am going to have to pay so many bills and shit when i get older ...house bills, utilities bills, car bills, phone bills, internet, cable... it goes on and on... and never seems to end... i used to not want to live past 25
him: i know man i feel the same exact way
me: it just sucks really badly
him: i know
me: i don't understand how life is sposed to be this amazing wonderful, joyous experience b/c all u do is work ur ass off and pay out ur ass
him: i know dude i hate thinking about it i just want to be a kid
me: ditto there was never ne thing to worry about when ur a kid
him: i know
me: hmm yeah so ne ways.. i am sposed to be making u feel better not worse but its hard when i feel the same way, like i am not gonna pretend that growingup has more pros than cons so idk what to do, anything i can do to cheer you u or even say? i do have one thing to say tho that will maybe help you feel better, there will be moments in your life that you will enjoy and at least u can hope for that
him: well . i just dont see what can be so exciting about growing old, getting married, getting a job, working allll daaaayyyyyy, giving all your hard earned money to BILLS, and never enjoying a day of your life
me: well the getting married part soudns good to me b/c at least then you're with someone that you love and i think love is the happiest feeling ever, and think of it this way when you're married, at least theres someone to split the bills with you and once you have someone, you will never have to be/feel alone again
him: i know but thats just one more factor that scares me. i dont even feel like im going to make anyone happy, or find the right person or fall in love. sure it sounds stupid and sure ill 'probably fall in love' but deep down i really dont think i will
me: i used to be the same way, i never ever wanted to have kids or even think i was going to fall in love b/c i was just not a one man type of girl and i could never imagine myself settling down and shit, and i know theres nothing i can say to change the way that you feel about falling in love but i think it will happen you just have to get out more lol. Once you do fall in love, you will be that persons everything and you'll make them happy no matter what
him: i know. everything is made out to be one big happy fantasy, like some fairy tale. but to me its more like a nightmare. i dont think im ever going to make it in life, be succesful or even enjoy being alive after the age of like 20 dude. i feel like ive already failed and i should just quit now and save myself the embarresment
me: well i would really miss you if you weren't around, honestly, i don't think i can handle that, and i know you think you will never do anything or want to live after 20 and such but who knows, i guess thats part of life, worrying lol, guessing and waiting, as much as it sucks, you never know what happens in the future until you live it, and i guess in a way that keeps me going b/c of the fact that something good could happen in the future altho you shouldn't sit back and just wait for something good to happen, b/c i guess thats not much fun
him: yeah i know... its just... i dont know. i just feel so lost. i mean, yeah im in college, but what about after that? i dont know what i want to do, or where i want to go, most people know what they want in life, and what they want to get out of it. i dont. im lost and i dont even know what to do
me: i have the same fucking problem, and thats why i am not even in college lol... i don't know what i want to do, like i have ideas but theres so many choices. Maybe as time goes by you will find something that you want to do or you will find out where you want to go in life, you have time, Many people have problems with feeling lost and i honestly don't know what you can do to fix that or find yourself or even what you want to do/get out of life... i think all you can do is live life and just let it flow as it comes, or u know, sit down and really try and think about something that interests you, such as movies and just think of ur options. There are always many many options, like you've said before, u could always move to florida and work at universal u know? or u could go to some film school and do something like that... just really think about your options
him: yeah but working on movies? it doesnt even seem plausable. its like a wet dream.
me: lol i like that comparison but u never know until you try. You just have to get out there and as they say "work your ass off" and besides who says you can't work on movies? you could do what george romero did... make low budget horror films on ur own and i mean look at him no, hes a huge success, i mean sure i know ur thinking what are the odds, and i think things like that all the time but u will never know until you try.
me: well that's more than my 2 cents and I am sorry if I didn't help you too much but just know that I love you
him: yeah
me: i really wish i could just wash away all your worries
him: me too
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| where do you go when there's no where else to go :( |
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Brian's mum wants me out of the house b/c I quit my job. I gave my 2 weeks notice b/c i hated my job. I had to stand outside in the cold, which is only going to get colder, for 4 hours. I have bad blood circulation so no matter how much I wear, i am still going to be cold. I plan on getting a new job, it's not like i am going to sit on my ass like i did all summer. So yeah, she wants me out of the house, but I have no where to go. Since my mum has the new baby and all, theres now no room for me at her house. My uncle took my room at my grammys where I had lived for 3 years, so theres no longer any room for me there either. Brian and I def. don't have enough money for an apartment. I need to get out of this house but where do you go when you have no where to go? I hate his mum. She's such a bitch. She got brian in a whole huge mess with his insurance company which has lead to more bills and more debt. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know if i can take anymore of this.
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[15 Nov 2005|01:56am] |
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Some people have the shittiest luck for absoloutely no reason at all. Why is it always the nice people who "god" shits all over? Like seriously, fucking a! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! Enough about that. I hate my job. It's the same thing everyday and I really don't like dogs all that much to begin with and I have to be out in the cold for a few hours and I hate the cold... so I am getting sick of this job really fast. I am quiting as soon as I get another job. The only reason I got this job is b/c brian's uncle owns the dog kennel. I want a job that I got on my own. Brian's birthday is on Monday. He's going to be 22. Idk what to get him really but I have a little idea but I'm not sure what he wants b/c he said he doesn't want anything in particular. I want to get him something good tho. ahahaha, Tabitha Steven is on the howard stern show and looks all fake and it makes me laugh. She looks like a man! She's a porn star. She has fake boobs, you can tell she had colagen in her lips, she looks like she had a nose job, lipo suction and she's grossly skinny. Yuck! So disgusting... I think I just threw up in my mouth a bit. She's the poster person for plastic sugery. She looks like shes had some botox b/c her face is tight and she has barely any expression lines. She just said she wants lipo out of her toes!! SERIOUSLY! ahahahahahahaha... i am dying over here, i may pee my pants! Oh yeah... my mum had her baby on Tuesday! She had a healthy boy. Garry Allan White Jr. born on November 8th, 2005 at 10:30 am 6 lbs 10 ounces. He is the absoloute cutest. I will put up soem pics soon. I am too lazy right now. Well that's all for today. I'm gonna try and go to bed... night all!
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| Good mood lately |
[25 Oct 2005|02:38am] |
So I have been in a really good mood lately. I have a job!!! I work at the dog kennel with brian but not in the same part of it. I am not much of a dog person, but hey it makes me money! I also got out of the house last night and hung out with my friend Dwayne, we watched movies. I hadn't seen him in 2 years! He's a really nice guy. My birthday's this weekend and I am going to eat some yummilicious pumpkin cheese cake. My mum, my aunt and myself are going to the cheese cake factory on saturday and then on the day of my birth my mum is taking me shopping! I love getting new clothes!
I almost burst with excitement the other day! The wizard of oz is coming out on a 3 disc collectors edition set and also a seperate 2 disc special edition dvd Which both came out today!. I love love love love the wizard of oz. I already have the movie on dvd, and on 2 vhs', one digitally remastered/restored and the other is the original soft case version. I have the soundtrack, wizard of oz barbie dolls, figurines, a blanket, some magnets and 2 shirts... so i need to get those 2 special dvd packages!! The 2 disc dvd set is 20 bucks and the 3 disc one is 40 bucks. Some of the special features on the 3 disc set are 10 hours of special features (!!!!!), short films, a bio on l. frank baum, cast bios, the childrens book (read by angela lansbury), 10 pictures, the original movie ticket, an mgm program that was for the employees only and it was about the movie and a whole buttload of other stuff. Go here to see more-
www.thewizardofozdvd.com It excites me sooooo much!!!!!
The reason I loved that movie as a kid was not becuase of the slogan "there's no place like home" but because of the fact that there was somewhere over the rainbow. I used to imagine an escape away from my life when I was a kid and dream about living in munchkin land because it was sooo pretty and it always fascinated me. I used to watch that movie over and over again so much that my mum threatened to hide it on me b/c she was so sick of it. The Scarecrow is my favorite. :)
I can't wait to go see my friend adam in springfield. I am sooo excited!!! So yeah, it's almost 3 am in the morning and i have work at 2pm, but I am just so awake and happy now!
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| Mice scare me. |
[23 Oct 2005|02:10am] |
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I own a hampster yet a mouse scares me. I am being stalked by a mouse. I was sitting on the toilet the other night, doing my thing, and a mouse ran out from behind the toilet and went right by my feet! Then I saw the same mouse again and this time he was over by the chimney and when i saw him, he stopped and looked at me! Then he hid when he saw that i saw him. I looked away again and he came out and looked at me and when I noticed him, he ran under the couch. I am afraid to get up. I don't want him to nibble on my feet!!! Make it go away!!!
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So if all goes well, I am going to visit my friend cheez, aka Adam, in springfield for the entire weekend of nov 4th-6th with my friend Nikki.We're gonna take the train/bus thingy there since neither of us drive. I really hope it all works out. He's been kinda depressed lately and I want us to cheer him up while we're there. This Saturday is my mum's baby shower. Which reminds me that I still have to get something for my unborn brother who is due soemtime around the second week of november. I can't wait! Next Sunday is my 19th birthday and I'm gonna spend the day with my mum b/c brian has to work. I think she's taking me clothes shopping. I love clothes and Bri says I have way too many clothes. You can never have enough clothes!!
We bought a phone today and ordered service last week and our phone is hopefully gonna be turned on today. We only have local calling tho and long distance is 5 cents a minute. Here's the new number in case anyone wants to call me sometime 508 234 9780. Trav, Bri, and myself did a little shopping today and I bought a HUMUNGO jar of pickles, yum yum. I also bought 5 dvds of old cartoons (ie, original bugs bunny and daffy duck, and woody the woodpecker) They were only 1 dollar each!! I was so psyched. Bri and I watched one of the dvds earlier and I loved it. It was good old cartoons that are soo better than they most of the shitty cartoons on tv nowadays for kids. I am never letting our far in the future son/daughted watch some of the shit thats on tv. They're gonna be grown up on classic rock like pink floyd and zepplin and watch bugs bunny dvds. None of that rap shit. I am watching myth busters and man I love this show. They really do prove/disprove things that I wonder about. I really gotta pee... later.
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I hate when you tell someone how you feel and you don't get the response you were hoping/looking for.
I pour my heart out for you to see right in front of me.
You pull it out and let the arteries dangle
confirming what i thought but never wanted to admit,
you never cared in the first place.
Why do i allow myself to be tortured like this?
Feeling kind of upset but knowing I shouldn't be.
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I hate when you tell someone how you feel and you don't get the response you were hoping/looking for.
I pour my heart out for you to see right in front of me.
You pull it out and let the arteries dangle
confirming what i thought but never wanted to admit,
you never cared in the first place
. Why do i allow myself to be tortured like this?
Feeling kind of upset but knowing I shouldn't be.
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[25 Sep 2005|04:09pm] |
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No Big E for me... we're broke. I need to get a fucking job!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| Halloween is my favorite |
[22 Sep 2005|12:25am] |
I am just sitting here, watching some mythbusters on tv and brians siting on the couch watching as well. I really don't know what to write, just that I should update my lj, so I am lol. I still have no real job. The liquor store job didn't last b/c the boss guy was uncomfortable with the fact that I am so young, but he didn't even have the balls to fire me to my face. He told me over the phone that he'd call me, and he never did, but I could tell that it was b/c of my age. W/e no biggie. I have a job working every friday at a bar. I do dishes. Its fun b/c the people I worl with are great but the pay is kinda shitty and its only once a week. I need to get a full time job and get un fat. Those are going to be my goals. Oh and maybe I can add make more friends to the list all though I really dislike people. The majority of the people I meet are just not worth my time and they are just shitty people. I got called a bitch today for no reason. I have very little friends and yet there some how manages to be drama. WTF.
My mum looks like she is going to burst any day now. She's due in about 6 weeks. I can't wait. She's getting Brian and I a computer for christmas, woot woot. My sister's still a bitch and she told my mum that she wants dss to take her into foster care, i think that'd be better for everyone else. Then Brian and I can go live with my mum lol, jk. I love my mummy and I can't wait for my little brother, Garry Allen White Jr. lol. What a long ass name. I am probly gonna end up calling him little garry or something b/c i think his dad will get confused at which garry I am talking to. My mum's baby shower is in the middle/end of october, sean's coming down here in oct. and my b-day and halloween are at the end of october woot woot!
Brian is also hopefully taking me to see death cab for cutie for my birthday. I love them a lot. I really really hope he takes me!! Well 'tis all for now.
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[07 Sep 2005|05:31pm] |
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if anyone wants to contact me since i have no comp. call me !!! 508 341 3054!
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| finally!!!! |
[16 Aug 2005|01:53am] |
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I finally have a job!!!! I am going to work at a liquor store in the center of hopkinton which is 20-30 mins away from me and 5 mins away from where I used to live. I start on wednesday. I am so excited. Brian's vacation starts this upcoming monday and he has frigin 8 days off! I AM SO EXCITED. I get to spend everyday with him and not have him be tired b/c of work. We are sposed to be going to maine with my mum, sister, aunt, and 5 cousins and one of my cousins friends, for 2-3 days hopefully i can get that time off from my new job. Our cottage where we stay is right across the street from the wells beach. I would love to lounge on the beach for 2 days. It would be sooo nice to go there and relax with brian. He has a family reunion this weekend but Idk if we're going, it's at hopkinton state park so there'd be swimming so I hope we go if its nice outenough to swim. Brian has been so lovey dovey lately and i love when hes all cuddly and stuff. It/he makes me so happy. I have to take some pics of me and him real soon so I can post them and show off how cute we are (ha conceited much? lol) Well that's all for tonight! <3
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[31 Jul 2005|02:00am] |
1. Reply with your name and I will write something random about you.
2. I will then tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I will pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I will say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I will tell you my first memory of you.
6. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll then ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. Put this in your journal, or else!
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| Such a great night tonight...well last night b/c it's almost 2 am |
[29 Jul 2005|02:50am] |
I had such a great night tonight. It's funny how when you go to school with someone, you never talk to them but once you leave school, you talk to people who you never would have talked to in school. I went to a bonfire at nathan's house and I think I made some new friends. I ate some smores and just had a great time. One kid told me that he could tell Brian was a great person just by looking at him
actual aim conversation with the sn's taken out
Azar: i saw u tonite
Azar: wats that kids name
Azar: mike?
me: oh ok, brian
Azar: brian
Azar: ya
Azar: u were wit him right
me: yep
Azar: he seems like a nice guy i introduced myself and shuch
me: yeah I saw, yeah he's wicked awesome and nice
Azar: ya hes a nice guy
Azar: llike just by looking at someone
Azar: u can tell if theyre are truely a good person
Azar: u can see it in him
me: yeah, he's the best
Azar: u guys bf gf
me: yep, a little over a year
Azar: nice
Azar: stick with him
Azar: hes a good guy
me: oh I plan on marrying him lol
Azar: good
The guy I was talking to, azar, had barely spoken more than 2 sentences to Brian and can tell how good of a guy he is. I love Brian. I hope the people I met become friends of mine.
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| hmph... probly one of my last rants |
[28 Jul 2005|02:28am] |
I hate when people talk to me out of the blue and pretend to care... you know who you are!
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I chopped 6 inches off of my hair
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I didn't like it at first, now I love it!
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I am working at a bar on friday and hope no drunk guys hit on me
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I am going to a bonfire Thursday night and am super excited
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I should be in bed right now
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Travis and Keith just came knocking on the window with the air conditioner in it so i couldn't see out of it and they scared the shit out of me, I didn't know what the noise was. I am glad they visited but I could have killed them for scaring me like that
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